The Finger

If Ms. Emily wants something, we get the pointed finger...hee, hee....you were thinking something else, admit it!

She is still speaking Chinese, but I am hearing Mommy, Daddy, and ball. I hear Goo-ga a lot...anyone care to guess what that means?

Her first doctor appointment is Monday to check her heart repair (done in China) I've noticed a slight tinge of blue in the hands at times....hope it's the lighting, and her skin tone. I'm really beginning to worry a little.....

Some problems

Well folks we are having some troubles. Emily has a terrible fear of bedtime. It's not a normal fear. It's complete panic here. If I go upstairs after dark, she panics. I have to go upstairs to my laundry room, which is where I spend half my life. But if it's after dark, Emily just falls apart. She screams at night if I put her down....not a normal scream, but like something out of a horror film. She is terrified. I have lights on in the room because I know she is fearful of the dark, but this fear of bedtime, I don't understand it. She wants to sleep in my arms. She has NOTHING to do with her bed. She sleeps in a crib next to us. I can touch her, but she wants me to hold her. I have never seen a child so scared....
Has anyone every experienced anything like this? My son had night terrors, but that is after you are at sleep. She is scared of the whole process.....pj time is panic time, because that means bed.........I'm really worried about her. I kinda wonder if she wasn't tied down or something at night?????

Happy Halloween

Ok time for a happy post. These are photos of Ms. Emily's first halloween. She liked giving out candy more than trick or treating. Be sure to look for her tail. She is supposed to be a bear, but the outfit looks more like some type of mole. Oh well at least she wasn't scared of it.

Loose Ends

This is the last photo of Dad and I, or is it Dad and me...never did get that right in school.....you can tell he is sick in this picture.
Been busy taking care of dad's house, and final bills. Yesterday we boxed up some of his things. The boys went thru and picked out some things they wanted to keep. It was really hard on all of us. Anthony asked for his hat and that just sent me on a crying jag. Can you believe the death certificates came back wrong! As if this whole mess isn't hard enough on me! Well I can see that this is very involved. Much more than I thought it would be. I may end up having to get a lawyer. I need these bills now, just getting home from China. Dad died without a will, please everyone write your will. This is the reason why I've been quiet lately. There just is zero time to get anything done. To those I promised packages, I will get them to you very soon....hang in there for me.....

AND....Bruce's dad went in the hospital last night........he has been very sick. Can I scream????

Some Favorites from China

Ok, I am sorry so long in posting. Jet lag is as bad as they say. And yes there is no time when you get home for anything! Shop before you go and pack your freezer with frozen dinners cause you are too tired when you get back to do anything! Thank goodness a good friend cooked some meals for us because we probably wouldn't have eaten. Well now I have to figure out about getting Emily re-adopted in the US because we are one of the States that wants this for school. Not that she is going anytime soon. That and getting dad's estate done has kept me pretty busy. Plus Emily is 2 and VERY mobile! She has shocked me a couple of times already. I thought she was trying to drown in the tub only to realize that she was getting on her elbows so that I could wash her hair.....AMAZING AT 2! She also eats neater than my 7 and 10 yr old. No mess whatsoever! And she knows how to put on her clothes by herself!! Every day she shocks me some more!! It's like a 20 yr old stuck in a 2 yr old body! She also knows when she is doing something bad, because she will look at you and then start laughing. No one has the heart to tell her no, and we need to start because I see a bad pattern coming here.........

We are Home

Friends sorry there were no posts in China, but we had a hard time with the internet. I did manage to send one photo home. I guess I suffered enough before I left home because Emily did great. She cried at Gotcha day for about an hour and that was it. She bonded right away to me, and came around to Bruce on day 4. She was very quiet at first but now she is laughing and talking Chinese. I don't have a clue what she is saying, but she knows songs in Chinese and she sings! It is so cute! I'm so glad after so much sorrow. Thanks to everyone that thought of us. I will post more but things right now are a mess. My dad died without a will so it's rough right now getting things taken care of. I loved China, but I'm very glad to be home!

Goodnight.......

I lost my daddy today at 12:30 pm. I had to make the decision. It was very hard. I held him in my arms as he was dying, and rubbed his head. The cancer just ate him up from the inside. I couldn't see him suffer anymore. He is with my mom now. She left us 10 years ago. I tried so hard to get Emily here before he went, but now he will have to be her angel.

Love to all. I am leaving tomorrow as planned. It's what he wanted. Please pray for my family. Poor Anthony is so upset. My sister is not dealing well. Pray for my brother to have the strength to get them thru this. I have made all Dad's arrangements. It's his wish that I go.

I know he is with us on this journey.

God Bless all of you for caring about us.
Love Carol